This morning I sit onto of a pavilion at least 30 feet high looking at the sun and all the beautiful greenery around me. Here I feel at peace. I’m taking this time to evaluate this past week of leading 14-18 years olds in a foreign country. It has definitely has not been easy. Before leaving the states I visited urgent care and the emergency room. I know that the enemy attacks, however I didn’t think that he would attempt to take out my team so fast.
In the past week I have had over 6 people sick with some type of something. If I’m being completely honest it stressed me out a bit. I’m constantly communicating with my leader in the states, with the parents of the children, and with God. I have doubted myself as a leader more in the past week than I have in a long time. Am I making the right decisions? Should I take her to the hospital sooner or later? Should I be forcing them to eat though they really don’t want to? Am I being to stern with them? Should I be letting them have more fun or free time? The list goes on and on.
So how do you cope when you feel the weight of the world is on your shoulders?
Spend time with the creator of the universe.
Well the Lord reminded me that He didn’t place me in the Dominican Republic as a leader for no reason. I am already equipped, because He lives in me and is reflected through me. Though leading is not always an easy thing, its something that He has called me to do. I wholeheartedly believe that each of us has been called to lead in some capacity, whether we feel equipped or prepared. Sometimes the Lord will send us little reminders of how equipped we are. My reminder came through 18 teenagers who have a lot to say.
Cheers to leadership. It’s most definitely not easy, but guess what?